My subconscious has been working overtime during many mangled hours of sleep. Since Trump secured the electoral college numbers to make him president-elect, I’ve awakened from uneasy dreams multiple times in the middle of every night with a horrible taste in my mouth and a lead ball feeling in the pit of my stomach. I’m pretty sure that along with the nightmares I’ve developed an ulcer. Note to self: Buy stock in Rolaids.
A couple of nights ago I had a dream that keeps nagging at the corners of my mind. I know it’s political, and not even very subtle. Tell me what you think:
I’ve gone into a shopping mall leaving my beautiful blue car in a parking spot at quite a distance from the building, the better to get my 10,000 steps in for the day. After walking around the mall and trying on clothes in various boutiques, I return to the parking lot only to find my car has been taken. I’m devastated. The car was my favorite.
I flag down a security guard on his little golf cart and we make several loops around the enormous parking lot with no success. Finally we call 911. When the police officers, Bill and Jill arrive I give them a detailed description of my car:
Medium blue, 2008 model, Chevy Allegiance.
“Ma’am,” Officer Bill says, “We’ll get right on that.”
“Can we give you a ride home?” asks Officer Jill.
As I’m getting into the officers’ patrol car, two older white men suddenly appear beside me.
“We found your car!” exclaims Man #1.
“It’s right here!” enthuses Man #2.
And sure enough, there’s a huge car covered by a white cloth just a few parking spots away. I follow the two men who are so excited about showing me my car. With a flourish, they pull the covering away to reveal a beautiful antique car. It’s a gleaming white Duesenberg.
“Isn’t it beautiful?” crowed Man #1. “It’s the 1933 model.”
“Yes, it’s lovely, but it isn’t my car.”
“It is now,” intoned Man #2. “Enjoy the ride.”
That’s when I awakened. Isn’t it amazing what one’s mind can do? A Chevy Allegiance? No such thing. A ’33 Duesenberg? 1933 was the year Hitler became chancellor of Germany. Coincidence?
As Trump assembles his team of alt-right racists and hard core hawks, this dream has become even more nightmarish. I just want my blue car.